Pray to God, allowing for the transformation of your being and feelings. Give to God what you have found in your heart.
Lord, to be honest I do not know what to make of your crucifixion. We believe that your Incarnation is the most definitive, the most direct, way that you have entered into our world. After thousands or millions of years, you yourself come down into human history. And then what? You spend 30 years among us, and then it all ends with you on a cross, suffering and dying?
When I stare at this illumination of your crucifixion, I see that the artist has painted your act of suffering with glorious gold. I am told that somehow Lord, I am supposed to see in that act the height of your love. Help me do that.
I admit that I do not understand the workings of your plan. I can barely sort out your movements within my heart. Yet I have faith that at the crucifixion, you acted in a way that changed all of human history, spreading forth even to today, when I live. I don’t understand, but I believe. I feel more and more questions and reasonings and thoughts arise in my head, but I will let them sit God. I will try to stand, mentally at the foot of the cross, and simply be still, knowing that you are God.
© Crucifixion, Donald Jackson, 2002. The Saint John’s Bible, Order of Saint Benedict, Collegeville, Minnesota. Scripture quotations are from the New Revised Standard Version of the Bible, Catholic Edition, © 1993, 1989 National Council of the Churches of Christ in the United States of America. Used by permission. All rights reserved.